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in my end is my beginning
san francisco, ca | 11:47pm PST

a lot has changed this year…
i became my own boss.
i wrote less and saw more.
i went where i had never gone before.
healing replaced running.
i connected with fewer but deeper.
i bought a car that’s been stolen twice.
i had more questions than answers.
photos have become more than a hobby.

every day in 2010,
i will not take a photograph.
but i will continue to search for beauty in the everyday
i will try to uncover inspiration in life’s menial tasks.
and i will look for the brilliance in the tiniest of moments.

and if you want to join me,
i will continue to be around.

don’t save the date
kansas city, mo | 3:08pm CST

i’ve often felt guilt for my constant need to wander.
i’ve often felt that my unquenchable desire for something new is actually a curse.
wreaking havoc on those close to me and leaving my heart in a constant state of mending

suddenly i see…je te vois…this is just a result of never knowing what i want, only knowing what i don’t want.
so, those sad, solitary times were worth it. after all.

i will never stop searching, seeing.
but now i have a vision. i see the horizon.
i want to build. always, never stopping. always changing. always growing.
always loving. avec toi.

someone once told me,
there is nothing more permanent than the temporary.

my thoughts will change. the color of my eyes will change.
i will change. and every time you see me, you’re seeing the new me.

at the crossroads
boston, ma | 11:09am EST

i was looking for something but it was there all along.

i found it in the sky, the dewy grass, the way the earth became quiet at dusk. i found it in my hand touching his, in our interactions, in our smiles, our kisses. i found that if you look hard enough, it will startle you…the answers are all in front of you.

and even though i was looking daily, it took a poetic year of searching to realize one great thing, and for old habits to give way.

i am not an architect, a photographer, a teacher or a vocation.

i am a creator.
i am a maker.
i am a dreamer, and
i am a lover.

follow me in subsequent years here, as i continue my adventure.